kites

I now see the world for what it is a mix of liars and hypocrites their disguised as fiends or saints where no one changes they only switch through lanes chasing the fastest way,wanting to get there today but ive come to realize thats not my way. happyness comes slowly its a long hard road and im not there yet some might say i'd get the feeling of reget but im over with it so take off your bets, i now see life for what it is a tide of highs and lows and were we end up nobody knows i see my life as a kite in one gust im above all of us then i fall without notice.

10/03/10

I forgot the string that was there all along, I forgot the man holding on guiding me threw so when a headwind's there forget despair, I have him to fall into. Happiness isn't hard to obtain, it doesn't require a journey, it doesn't take a long hard path, it comes in the way you react. If I only understood that there was someone here, looking after me even when i was unaware. The time has come to know that man, trust in him and do what I can not to dwell on the liars or the hypocrites, but look at the daring who took a chance and learned from it. I'm keeping in my mind thoughts of men and women who tried, i cant stand by and pretend to be on my own with no final direction in mind. Ive tired that and it doesn't end with a claim sublime life, it leads to a lost man with no one by his side.

Coming Home

i'm coming home today almost on my way, forgetting about all the regrets. like why i had to go astray. ive been tied to the tracks and a train is coming down. theres no rational escape. and the worlds falling in all around.all that there is left, is a mixture of love hate and regrets. all bets are off kids. its going to be a crash and burn or fly and soar. its not even up to me ether way. theres one question i have it say, why did it take so long? why have i done some many things so wrong? i feel like its probably all gone. i guess it will be best if that question remained masked. but ive been asking it for the last two years. im flat out sick of living in my fears.

eh.

im sick of these ten hour days ya life sure sucks these days im just livin day by day navigating myself threw the haze while the trail of upset x'es and fallen friends keep me from finding myself in the end but no no life wont end its either give up give in live in sin or go on stay strong and push threw, i should get the courage to say enough with you but we all know thats something i would never do. yes i hear what you say your just another coward thats getting in my way. but that ends today, good day;)