Career assessment.

In 10th grade I took a test that was supposed to show what I should be when I grow up, it told me I should be a bike shop owner! The economic outlook was something about 35,000 a year with a small market growth. I thought cool, I guess. I am employed as bike shop worker now but I have no desire to just run a bike shop the rest of my life. My life is up in the air something that's liberating but fills me up with fear at the exact same time. 

The bike shop owner is something I can poke fun of because it was a computer telling me to be someone not  a real human so there wont be any hard feelings. I have realized this type of planning ahead is counter productive to success, not only to worldly success but the success of my soul. When I made hard set plans in the future for all the big things I ended up making these huge decisions and grandiose visions based on the knowledge that I only had in the moment then. When the time really comes and I get to the point of actually having children or any other big life decision my future self will be more experienced. He will be more knowledgeable and hopefully more mature. 

I still believe I should be moving forward becoming prepared for what will enviably be the next step in my life. The best way for me to do this is by firmly fallowing the morals my heart knows to be true and not giving into others perceptions of what I am, or giving to what others believe I am. This is a realization that has helped me understand the mind that is Greg over the past summer. I over-think, over-plan and over-stress about where I am going to go from here, here is now the future is then and if I was to make goals for a future self to live by I would be selling my future self short. How do I know I'll be wiser in the future? Because I've been a whole lot dumber in the past. I'm going to let the wiser man make the choices he needs to at the proper time. 

Father.

I thought i should share this realization i had.

The best way for me to keep the feeling of loneliness at bay is to keep my father in heaven closer and closer. In time the loneliness does subside. The gift of trial is the bond I strengthen and develop with my Heavenly Father. That never leaves my mind and heart. All else could come and go but this will not.

Heres things I been doing.

So I thought I'd switch things up here in Greg.is.a.mess and not just talk about doom and gloom subjects of the past. I'm loving life and this summer semester has been full of learning, growing and fun.

First trip after the school semester I went to Moab to do some techy mountain biking you know it was good when you throw out your back! It was way fun with my bud Andrew but by the second day we worn out and headed home.

I got my wfr for those not in the know that's wilderness first responder its more than first aid but less than a EMT. I learned how to save lives and also save myself from lawsuits! The class was full 10 hour and 14 hour classes for two weeks, so yeah I kinda know my stuff. On our off campus mock rescue I had to play a surprise victim I had to act like I went to pee and poured water to make it looked like I peed my pants the sad thing is my group started laughing at my expense thinking I actually peed my pants, it took awhile for them to realize it wasn't real, am i really that weird? Don't answer that...Anyways Here be a pic of me with a make shift immobilization of the arm sweet huh?

I don't work till about two on the weekdays and have been mountain biking about 20 miles a day all over the Wasatch front, its been pretty legit! Park city is all dry and I'm going up Tuesday I couldn't be more excited about it. Today I went for three hours and ran over a rattle snake came across two coyotes mating and got swarmed by nasty weird cicadas (their basically locus but smaller) I hate, hate them. Hate. Here's a picture of a ride I loved...no cicadas. 

I made a personal goal to getting into river sports and went down the Colorado by Moab with some friends Monday we left at 5 am and came back at 11 pm. Worth the drive! It was by far the funniest thing I've done for years.Milts (the best hamburger place in the world) was closed made me furious but i got over that.  Jimmy is going back tomorrow to do it again but I have to work! Now I'm in love with new sport and gotta save my pennies for my own gear instead of rentals! Here's a pic of that party.

A few weeks ago I drove out to the Manti temple, I've been to Manti before but never did a session there. It is by far the most astonishing building I have ever been to. It outshines the whole valley and I can't imagine what it would be like to build that monument over 100 years ago. The inside is as glorious as the salt lake but it feels like I walked back in time to the time the pioneers built it. It made me question if these farmers and craftsman from Europe could devote themselves to build this am I really doing all I have the potential to do in my life? It was good and I've been going to the temple once a week since. Here's a pic I took of the Manti temple it doesn't do it justice but its the best I could do. (That old couple ahead of me were there for their 60th anniversary of them and their children getting sealed in the temple they were cute)

I've also on top of biking I've hiked y mountain every week, I love the outdoors and getting sun but I think I'm turning into a leather couch, see the resemblance?

At last I'm staying busy working, having fun and worshiping the Lord. I've also lost 15 pounds in the process which is nice but with my leather skin I think I might start getting mistaken for a rat, oh well. That's my life now for the second half of summer, (or the start of the official "season" ) turning 25, finishing math and finding more rivers and bike trails!