Saturday, August 14, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
Im just sitting here waiting for you to stop looking at the man from across the room. Dont you see that i've got everything you need and your wasting your time pondering other possibilities, i know i sound conceded and a little broken hearted, but that doesn't change the fact that your never going to relax till you find that man that holds your heart in his hand and i dont mean to sound desperate but couldn't you just hand it to me just for once? i wont let you down and i'll always be around. I know that line sounded generic but at least it was honest. now please look back in my direction and lets continue this flirtation because this date is far from done. i just wrote this melody for you, are you impressed? have i won your heart yet?
Monday, April 12, 2010
I saw it when i was a sunbeam, talking about the Saviors death with questions of why under my breath, leaving me to cry my eyes out with discontent.
I saw it when I was six, when my family read Moroni 9:8 causing me to ponder the idea of hate.
I saw it leave when I was 12 because for a time I simply didn't care.
I saw it when I saw her, the woman I wanted but knew I didn't deserve. Leaving me to evaluate myself and it caused me to be lifted out of my self made hell.
I saw it when I stood on top of Provo with the MTC under my feet, knowing it's exactly where I needed to be.
I saw it when we found that family who got baptized and will eventually be sealed for time and all eternity.
I saw it when I looked up at Sandia Peak and figured out that it was always all around me.
I saw it when I heard my sister sing, There is no death above.
I saw it when my time was up.
I saw it come when I thought I'd had enough.
I saw it beside me in my times of despair, leaving me to never doubt if it was there.
I saw the light, I saw the Christ.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
To me beauty is love, when I think of all the things that I believe to be beautiful love is the feeling that fills my soul so I thought what do I think is beautiful? Women and nature came first to my mind. Why do i think these are beautiful? Why do I love them so much? I realized that their my other half's there parts of me that i myself cant be. I cant have the compassion of a woman or the understanding and faith. I have to love a woman for her to share those aspects of who she is. Love is a bond that connect two and when looking at it "it's" beautiful.
Nature is everything that isn't me, its woods mountains, desserts and city's. Certain types of landscapes connect me to how I feel inside. In high school i was confused alone and rushed so I felt at home when i was in the city, it connected me to how I felt inside.
Last summer I was anxious for a new start I wanted to prove myself and I wanted a challenge so my soul felt at home on the peaks of mountain tops. Anytime I closed my eyes thats where I was that landscape fit my soul and I thought there was nothing more beautiful.
Now after my challenges and heartbreaks with lost loves my soul lies in a dessert. the desserts of southern Utah, Arizona, New Mexico and Colorado . Theres a peace that comes to me when im out there everything's calm, everything's smooth. The land is flat when cliffs do appear theres sand rock and there smooth. everything is subject to the wind. Its like how I feel now im at peace and I feel that everything I do is subject to god and that im okay with it.
Its just like the redrock in southern Utah it has waited to get to be turned into something amazing. they become arches. I feel at peace there because my goal in life is to become an arch. I am willing to subject myself to what god wants not what I want, and im willing to let God, (or the wind) take its time on me and turn me into what I should be. in till then im satisfied just being in a dessert. The sun is visible from sunrise to sunset, theres no clouds to get in my way and no mountains to delay the sun. I think I have found the landscape my soul will forever reside in.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
so today sucked pretty bad. i was in a horrible mood i needed something to brighten my day. so i thought to myself maybe the internet could help? so i went to google and typed in "cute" for a image search and this little guy pop'ed up. it pretty much made the world amazing again. you cant look at that picture and not feel fuzzy inside.
Monday, March 8, 2010
i have had a few awkward experiences the past few weeks i'd thought i'd list a few.
1 wheres the most awkward place to run into a history teacher from high school ? i'd say in the locker room at the local golds gym right after I've taken a shower.
2 having an ex-girlfriend try to set you up.
3 having an ex-girlfriend give you dating advice.
4 ignoring your ex-girlfriends dating advice only to find out two weeks later that she knew what she was talking about.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
So i work out at golds gym a few days a week, and yesterday i was looking at this buff little man who has to be at the most 5'1 he was working his little elf heart out and I just got the urge to go up to him and give him a hug and say sir, you do realize that no matter how buff you get your still going to be short? he then got super upset and put me on the naughty list.